mixed thoughts and emotions

We are expecting our 20 week scan tomorrow but I really need to get some things off my chest regarding surrogacy in India:

The Melbourne conference brought up so many thoughts, and emotions and this is just MY opinion of what I learnt in no particular order

* Western arrogance is sad, just because your western doesn't mean you are any better than anyone else and just because you have a degree in ONE area does not mean you are QUALIFIED to have an opinion on Indian Culture or Medical practice.

* We are all people, we all eat sleep and poop, we all have feelings, we all feel we know things we don't know just because we read a newspaper or went to school or saw one TV program. This does not mean we DO know.

* I am attracted to people who are 'real'. I love people who admit they are human and have strengths and admit they have weaknesses. I feel relieved when people are 'honest' and 'human'

* I love to be positive and I am so lucky and grateful with so many areas of my life. I am truly blessed.

* I have had some "huge" bumps along the road and they still can make me feel sad and that's ok.

* Sometimes I care too much what others think of MY decisions, I need to stay true to my convictions.

* Everyone's journey is THEIR OWN. We may be similar but no one has the SAME journey.

* I am standing strong and proud of my story, I love my son and husband and I love this baby, this will become my baby's story and they are gonna be so damn proud of it because Mb, Jay and I are!!!!

* I continue to meet the most amazing people through this journey. I have made some of the most wonderful friends and I thank them for just being real.

* We over analyse everything and think that makes us smart......it can make us more judgmental and arrogant.

* I loved the Indian solicitor who got up and spoke, such practical people who say it how it is.....just love it.

* Loved the American Psychologist who spoke from a non judgmental and practical, human perspective.

* Repeating the word "vaginal" too many times in a conversation makes me giggle when it comes from a man. 

* Life is not a competition, it's all about balance not winning.

* Surrogacy is very new to Australia and India.

* I trust Dr Shivani 

* I admire each and every one of you who I have met over this journey and you have made me a better person.

* Surrogacy can not consume my life, I need to live in the moment too. 

* The food was bloody delicious and I wish I didn't talk so much so I could have stuffed more in!!!

* Thank god I didn't drink I would have told you all how much I love you, 20 million times !

* Sam your the man! So proud to call you a friend, thank you for standing up for your convictions and helping us do the same!